I'm gonna ramble on. Sometimes that happens.
My house is a mess. Like a really big mess. And it's a little overwhelming.
It wouldn't be so bad except I still feel like crap most of the time, so exhausted from the smallest things, nauseous, dizzy, headaches. My body is so weak. I'm either freezing to death or so overly hot and sweating. When I try and sleep my body just aches and hurts. My body is wacko.
It makes accomplishing anything so hard.
I have my moments of self pity. Really it's moments of guilt. I want to be able to be the Mom that I normally am and do all of the things that are normally not a big deal.
Just getting the laundry out of the dryer is a big deal.
I think I traumatized my body just a little bit with all the surgery. And now I have to be patient with myself.
And also menopause at 34 wasn't on my to do list. It is taking some time for me to adjust to. Someone email me if you have any advice about that.
I'm pretty sure that a hot shower would make things a little better-
They are outside, inside, and in the attic right now replacing pipes. I was really REALLY hoping to have a hot shower instead of a cold one tonight. Not today:( Now I'm REALLY hoping tomorrow. We've gone without hot water before. The kids and I took cold showers for awhile when we lived in the shack. And I would rather have cold water than no water, but it doesn't matter how many cold showers I take I will not ever like it. I do not tolerate temperature change very well, never have. Too hot or too cold and my body panics.
I will say we have really awesome landlords who always fix things right away, spray our weeds, take care of the trees and even come and do the irrigation. They didn't raise the rent when 5 more people moved in and even installed an air conditioner when we thought about moving because a swamp cooler wasn't cutting it. So basically I know we are pretty lucky. And they did offer for us to come and shower at their house every day, but I have a problem imposing on people. I'd rather take cold showers.
Heard enough about that? Call me when your hot water goes out, I'll listen.
Hazel has pink eye. Avary almost threw up. Will snuck flowers into my car while I was in a movie with my bonus girl B. It made me like him. Also he killed a spider that was right next to my head and didn't even make fun of me. Killed it before I even spotted it! He has come a long way in being sympathetic to my extreme reactions.
My kids are watching a really dumb movie about a bunny puppy. I am not even kidding, it has been showing them dying eggs for TEN MINUTES. Even the kids are wondering what this movie is about. Avary said "they shouldn't be doing that on the bare table it could get dye all over it" That is how boring this movie is.
The dog is singing about pooping easter bunnies now! What!
I think I'm gonna have to intervene here.
And my Mr. just got home early. That never happens! Smile.
