April 7, 1999
I love this picture of us. We look happy.
I want you to know that I have forgiven you for all the things that you have done. I hope that you can forgive me too. I want you to know that I am proud of you for the things that you have overcome and the progress that you have made.
Even though most of our marriage was full of pain and sadness I want you to know that I do remember every good moment we spent together. I remember because it filled me with hope. I could see who you were meant to be, I still can.
I remember all of the thoughtful caring things that you did do and they meant so much to me. I love that person in you. I remember every time that it felt like you wanted me in your arms, I remember every time we stayed up talking and laughing. I remember when you brought me a heart made out of copper and when you wrote our initials into the sidewalk with the pressure washer, it lasted for years. I remember when you wrote me a poem and when you scratched "i love you" into my steering wheel. And so much more. I remember every time I existed to you.
I loved you with my whole heart and I don't regret what I gave. I want you to know that you will always have a part of my heart forever. I will always be your friend even if you choose not to be mine. I will always be honest with you. I will always want the best for you and for you to be the best you, for you to be happy. And I will always be here if you need me. I love you.
Camille
13 years later.
a song from our wedding just so i can sit here and cry
