I have been having such a hard time lately. If you've been around me it's no secret.
I will be doing ok feeling like I can do this and then something so small, but big in other ways, will have me drowning in fear. Feeling so overwhelmed and so incapable. And so TIRED! There are certain aspects of this whole moving situation that are so scary to me. I am walking off the edge of a cliff in the dark. But the only one I can trust is the Lord and I know he will catch me. But sometimes it's hard when I wish I could look to my parter and not feel so alone in it all, but we are not there yet. This is a long road and I don't know where it leads.
I am so grateful for priesthood blessings, they have brought me so much comfort and in moments of feeling defeated I have been given strength far beyond my own. Because at this point it is not my own strength, that I am sure of.
I heard these words in a song the other day and they touched my heart. Reminding me that His light can penetrate to the very depths of the sea, to where ever you are.
There's a joy inside I can't contain
But even perfect days can end in rain
And though it's pouring down
I see You through the clouds
Shining on my face
Breaking through the dark
Suddenly your grace
Mercy reaching to save me
Making my life something so beautiful
