So, sometimes parts of life suck. And it makes me want to run away. With my kids of course, well, sometimes alone. But don't worry I love my little chicks too much to be gone long. And I think they would miss me. I am going to tell myself that anyway.
So, we might run away somewhere. I don't know where and we are broke, but for some reason it feels like things would be better if we left.
I am under way too much stress and losing my patients way too often. And no money = no babysitters. I have a thing about them anyways. I know I should feel bad for the babysitter with all my naughty kids, but I don't trust ANYONE and I am always scared they will be mean and my kids will feel sad or get hurt or something. And I just feel guilty for leaving them with anyone other than their dad and even sometimes him, but he has not been around anyway.
But, I had my nephew, who is 18 watch the kids for and hour while me and my sis went to eat. He watched hers too, she has 2. He was way responsible and did an awesome job. And he can drive so I think I might see if I can get him to run errands for me too. He is going to get sick of me this summer.
It helped to just be able to eat my dinner. Yeah that's all. It sounds lame but it was just what I needed.
In other news:
One of our 3 fish died.
This fish, I can't remember her name, has been dying for months. It was losing it's color and would swim on it's side. I secretly do not want the fish, but I can't flush live fish. That's murder.
I am glad it finally moved on. The kids haven't noticed yet. Watch they are going to fight over who's fish it was. Because no one wants a dead fish.
