Food for thought

This is something Hailey wrote at school. I love it and think she is so talented and a wonderful writer.

I'm Waiting

I'm waiting for Thanksgiving to come, for the smell of mashed potatoes being made for supper, for the sight of mother saying the dinner prayer so beautifully, for the taste of roast turkey almost burning my tongue, for the feel of love being spread around to make people smile, for the sound of music playing in the family room, and laughing in the kitchen. And then I will know it's Thanksgiving Day!

By Hailey

A little man

I was watching Kade do his homework and he had to draw a picture of a man. Awhile later I was about to take a drink and out of the corner of my eye I thought I saw a little man. Haha this made me laugh. It still does.

I'm thinking again!

Right now my house is a disaster. Avary is watching ponies and Hazel is taking a nap and I should be cleaning. I am doing laundry, but I should be doing all of the other cleaning kind of things in between. But instead I can't stop thinking about change.

I have been thinking about this for a very long time. No not hours. . it has been years.

I have a testimony of repentance, forgiveness, faith, hard work, patience, all of the things that go along with change. I have used all of these things often.

I'm not talking about weather or not it is possible because I know that it is, we are promised that it is. We are even told what to do and how. The thing I am talking about is, do they?

Have you ever had one of those toxic friends? The kind that when you talk to them they drain you and you feel exhausted after being with them? They seem to make the same mistakes over and over and you know they know better but their life always seems to be falling apart. And every time they make progress and seem like they learned something they go and do the same thing again! It seems like there is no consequence that ever seems to be bad enough for them to change. Eventually you end up having to distance yourself from them because somehow their bad choices end up bringing you down, or stressing you out. Or if you are too close they end up hurting you.

The hard part is making that choice to let them go. I guess it's because who will take care of them when you are gone? And it is so hard to finally come to the conclusion that they are not going to change.

It's not that they don't know how, it's not that they can't, but they choose not to.

I have to say I do not personally know, lets say .. any men..(now don't get all -you are a man hater-on me because I'm not). I just happen to not know any that have actually changed their lifestyle or bad behavior or how they treat their wife or kids or bad temper or emotional or verbal abuse. It can be a long list. I'm sure they are out there, but I don't know any of them that choose to change and at some point don't change back. I know some women like this too, but I just happen to know a few who decided to change and never looked back. At what point do you say, see ya later?

There are always people who are going to say, why did you let them treat you that way for so long? And then the one's who say, you think You are worth something? You should stay forever, what makes you think You deserve better? Well. . that's what they are really saying, right?

Really, I wish there was an answer like, after this long, or at this point, or if this happens, but there's not. It is a HUGE risk to ever try and trust them again or give them another chance. How long should you spend your life in that cycle?

I know the real answer is trust in the Lord, He is the only one that can give you an answer like that.

No one ever wants to talk about these things because there is no easy answer. But I think about it. Think about it, do you know someone personally who has changed their heart and their behavior and never changed back?

Halloween

I just have to say that today I am so sad. It's that heart wrenching sadness and disappointment. You wonder how you will keep going and wonder if your heart will ever stop hurting. It's a familiar feeling for all of the familiar reasons, you would think that when you can see it coming it would get easier. But somehow it never does.

Ok. That is as long as I will bore you with that. Now let's get on with it.


So...for Halloween I had a little party with the family. I talked it up and made plans and then Mr. Incredible didn't show up until the end so I was a little disappointed, but every one had fun. My camera died half way through, that is always irritating. Why didn't I think to charge my camera?

On Thursday we went to grandma and grandpa's trunk or treat party where Mr. Incredible lost a pie eating contest, we ate yummy chilly from the cook off, and they gave all of my kids real fish when they played the fishing game. Sadly they didn't make it and were flushed to sea. Avary and Kade shed many tears for only knowing them for one night.

Friday was our party where we had a doughnut eating contest, candy corn pickup, bean bag toss, monster teeth race, pumpkin painting, mystery feeling gross stuff like eyeballs and dancing.

Saturday we trick or treated for a mile and the kids got waayy too much candy. Mostly candy bars, whole candy bars. Crazy! So, the house and the kids have been cranky and sticky and I think we are all partied out.

Now we just have to get ready for more birthdays and lots of eating.

Avary turned 4

My little Avary. So sweet.

Avary Charity was my easiest pregnancy out of the 4. She came a week early at 7 lbs. 5oz. 19in. We named her after she was born. She was immediately awake and alert but didn't cry she just looked around. She had little elf ears. I remember her ankles were so skinny we couldn't find socks that would stay on, that didn't last long. She chubbed right up. Avary was also my easiest baby. She had rsv when she was 2 months old and that was scary for awhile, and she was stung on the finger by a scorpion and that was scary too. Other than that she was always smiling and rarely ever cried. In the beginning I was worried something was wrong because she was so quiet and happy, I had never had a baby like that. She has always been mellow and quiet and happy.

I always say Heavenly Father sent her to trick me into having more.

She has always been a climber. She didn't need chairs she used her fingers and toes and would climb right up anything. She was able to swim when she was 2, flips and everything. She has had to run with all of her boy cousins so she is tough and can hold her own. But does it in a princess dress.

She was so excited to turn 4 and she was excited to get her ears pierced, she didn't even flinch or make a face. Her ears didn't even swell up.

Avary is so sweet and loving it makes me happy to see her smile. Oh how I love my little babycakes!