Bald spots

My poor little Avary climbed under her bed and this is what happened to her. It took me a minute to realize that her hair was actually ripped out of her head. I wanted to cry (for real I still want to). It had to hurt soo bad. When I unbraided her hair and she saw the huge chunk she started to cry. She has not let me cut her hair for like a year because she just wants long hair. But someone, who we will not name has cut her hair in the front TWICE.

She said she didn't want to go to preschool tomorrow because someone might see it. Isn't that so sad. It makes my heart hurt. My poor Babycakes!

October Break.

We went to the pumpkin patch! The kids had fun picking their pumpkin, playing in the blow up jumper, seeing the animals, going on a hay ride and doing the hay maze.

Although we would have had way more fun if we were not dying of heat stroke. I'm sure you will notice my kids beat red faces. Now if you add everyone sweating and being covered in dirt and hay and my sunburn that blistered that will make the day. It wouldn't be Halloween without it.

We also went to the zoo (got a sunburn there too) but I didn't have my camera.

We went to Tucson to visit D & B and I found a wonderful friend I didn't know I had. I mean why would they care about some half way ex in law cousin? But they let me and my 4 crazy kids come crash their day and eat their food (which was very good by the way)and mess up their house and keep them up late and they never blinked an eye. They smiled and hugged me They are so nice they make me want to cry (don't worry I will do that in private). I love seeing couples who are happy and in love. And now I have experienced the awesomeness of the lovely miss B. Smile.

After a meeting with the sisters it is decided that we have a disorder, in which we do not know what to do when people are nice to us and we feel weird and guilty and you are waiting for the other shoe to drop because it catches you off guard. We have been exposed to way too many mean people.

Then the next day we went to Thatcher to see some long lost friends who we have had a tradition of carving pumpkins with nearly every Halloween for the past 8 years. They also are some of those nice folk who welcome you in and let you sleep and eat and play at their house. Our kids paired up perfectly and ran wild having the best time. Kaden even got his fix shooting potato guns and playing with fire because the Dad's were playing with fire. They never complained about wanting to go home and asked when we could go back before we had even left. I got car sick on the way home, I'm lucky that way. But we had a lot of fun and wish we lived closer because the kids have decided that we love them so much we must be related to them.

Then believe it or not we went to Grandpas 65th birthday party! Oh how we love him! I think it is time to retire and start acting old.

Are you Kidding me!

Hazel definitely knows she is two. She has been a tornado today.

I sat down to make a grocery list, sounds easy right. Wrong. I have to go through all the ads then all the coupons then try and make a menu out of it. For anyone who does this you know it is torture, I hate it, but it saves me so much money.

Well anyway, while I was doing this Hazel very quietly goes into my room and climbed on the dresser?? And throws everything off scriptures church papers and all of the socks needing to be matched(they were up there to be away from her). I heard a little giggle so of course I had to get up and find her wearing way too many socks.
Next she goes and throws all the books off of the book shelf and gets stuck climbing up the shelf and this time I hear her saying help. When I go to help her I find candy corn and cheese its all over the floor (our pantry door is broken and obviously she likes to climb).
Next she dumps all of the blocks out all of the puzzels out and tries to pull out all of the wipes. Gets into my purse looking for my favorite chapstick.

AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!

I've had it, this girl needs to eat lunch so I can put her for a nap. That consisted of her squishing it in her hands and throwing it all over the kitchen. Taking her clothes off 3 times while I was trying to get her out of there.

This all happened in one hour! Needless to say I did not make it to the store with all of the cleaning I need to do now. And Yes taking her to the store with me goes exactly as horribly as you can imagine. So I think I will not put myself through that today.

All about Hazel

My little Hazel is 2 years old! I can't believe it.

My pregnancy with her was anything but fun. I wanted to appreciate every moment of my last one, but from the beginning it wasn't so. I had constant painful contractions the whole time and worried about her coming too early. I would say she was the most active but i think it was the fact that I had a cyst in my ovary that she was smashing every time she moved made me notice her every painful move(gross i know, it's gone now). I had kidney stones and no painkillers! That is love. I was anemic, had a headache every day and was uncomfortable in every way. Everything I tried to do was painful.
I was sure that I was going to be blessed with the best baby that slept all night and never cried because I was having a 4th child. That is a lot nowadays.
She came two weeks early and was my best labor(if there is such a thing) I delivered naturally, which was my goal, but broke my tailbone in the delivery. She was 6 lbs 1 oz 19 in. I brought home a baby that screamed constantly and never slept longer than an hour at a time without waking up screaming for a year! She had rsv, ear infections, acid reflux, and was always in the 7th percentile. She would scream in the car until she passed out and would not let anything be easy. Four kids, no sleep and Ric no where to be found, let me tell you, I was on the brink of insanity. but then she would smile through the tears and it was all worth it.

She is still so little, but full of mischief.

Almost every minute is spent plotting her next scheme. She is a purse snatcher. She likes to eat my favorite chap stick. She is definitely a climber. She likes to play copy cat and can tease her siblings like the best of them.
Yesterday in the car everyone was quiet except for Hazel who was screaming at the top of her lungs "be quiet". She likes to take toys and run. She absolutely will not tolerate being left out.
She loves to pull hair just so she can give you a hug and say sorry. She loves to change her clothes, just tonight Ric wanted to sew her into her jammies.
She screamed for the first year of her life and was never put down. I was the only person she would let hold her for that first year. I was probably the only one who would take her (miss grumpy pants).
Her hair grows like weeds and has had 8, yes 8, haircuts with at least an inch or two cut off every time. She was born with a mullet.
She loves to make funny faces, loves to dance and loves to sing. She has an infectious smile with her little pumpkin teeth.
She has always been very affectionate and her little hugs around my neck cheek to cheek are greatly appreciated. I can't get over her cuteness. I could go on all day as most mothers can about our little loves.
I wouldn't trade her for the world, or sleep or skinniness or quiet or even a tail bone that didn't still hurt. I love my little Hazelnut!

I will post a picture as soon as I can figure out how.

songs of the heart

So, years ago my brother gave me a cd with a bunch of churchy songs that make me cry on it. Music goes straight to my heart. I can tear up on the first note. I heard this song today. This song I have been listening to for years because it is just how I feel so often. I was searching for so long to feel my Father in Heaven's love for me and sometimes it felt so far away and so lonely and other times it is like I can almost hear him. In all my worries and falling short I know He is the only way to ever feel peace. Because He IS always there. I'm lame and don't even know who sings it.

How do I walk through the darkness
Trust that I'll find your hand
Where do I look for the answers
So that somehow I will understand

When my heart aches
When my soul yearns
When the road seems far too long
How will I learn what you teach me
When I don't even know how I'll go on

There are times that I can almost hear you
And it feels like you are right by my side
I need you there
To know you're there

When it feels like I am falling
When I've given the best I have
When the sea of my life is raging
Only you Lord can calm the waves

And help me know
How will I know
I need to know you're there