Puppies and money

This is Anika. She is our new puppy.

Avary has been obsessed with playing doggies, she begs and begs all day long for someone to play doggies with her. And if no one will she uses her best puppy dog eyes. Sometimes I have her fetch me everything on the floor. smile.



As I was walking down the hall I came across this. This is one of Hailey's money making schemes. So far she is the only one who has paid the fee. haha.



At lunch today Avary told Hazel that her head was gone, she cried and cried, until Avary said she was just joking. And then she tried it on Ric, but he just laughed because he said he used to do that when he was little.

One of those days.

Today is one of those days from one of those weeks. The kids weren't horrible, but the days have been so long because I am sick of feeling crappy. I hate it when there are some things in your body that cause pain and you can't fix them. It is affecting my quality of life. Where are all of the free super smart doctors that can fix anything?

I would like to just go to bed and sleep for a month or so. Do you think the kids would miss me?

I try to remember that it could be so much worse, and it has been. Some how it is still hard today.

I was thinking about what I do to keep myself going and to keep that peace in my heart so I don't feel like I am drowning. And then I have to make sure I am still doing them. It's so easy to get lost in all of the business of having four kids and you can't find a moment to just breath without someone crying or fighting or climbing on you. Sometimes when I think of how awful it would be if I couldn't see all their little faces it immediately fixes it and they become cute again.

Today they are still cute through the blurriness of my headache.

I love these words they are so meaningful and can give me such peace. I find myself humming this song often. It probably doesn't have a peaceful affect on anyone within hearing range though. smile.

Be still, my soul, The Lord is on thy side;
With patience bear thy cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to order and provide,
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul, Thy best, thy heavenly friend
Thru thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul, Thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul, The waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.

Be still, my soul, The hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul, When change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

Now to go on and finish my day and make it through the never ending bedtime routine. It's so worth it to see their sweet little faces fall asleep happy.

2010

So, I have been thinking about what the theme of 2010 should be. Here are some thoughts.

2010. . .

Time to get thin!...ummm...maybe

Stop procrastinating again...well seeing how it's already the second week in January I think it's too late for this one.

Time to get out of debt..again..That sounds nice.

No more yelling...well sometimes they can't hear you unless you yell for them to be quiet.

Time to run a marathon...I will settle for a mile.

Pass that kidney stone again...without dying.

Pretend to be married again...I will pass this request along.

Finish unpacking after a year and a half...I might just give it all away.

Finally hang some pictures on the wall again...I like this one.

Take a vacation...this is the best one.

Well maybe I will get back to that later.

Hailey asked if Ric and I die if she can have the wii. And Kade asked if he could have the car. Well, they will be living in a box with no tv to play the wii and no where to park the car. So that's settled.

At dinner tonight kade's word's of wisdom were "If you don't do what your mom and dad say you will go to jail and if you are too fat you will die" I just looked at him and he said "you know it's true, remember that old lady" haha he always makes me laugh.

Goodbye 2009

2009 I'm not going to lie, I am glad to see you go. You were very unkind to me.

You brought sickness and surgery, fat, pay cuts, debt, stress, separation, loss, sadness, loneliness, disappointment, fear, worry, pain, tears and unbearable heartache.

But you also brought change, hard work, faith, many many prayers, repentance, boundaries, growth, answers, strength, knowledge, laughter, love, friendship, understanding, patience and a priceless gift of peace, an ever growing unbreakable testimony of my Savior and my Father in Heaven's plan for me and the most special life changing moments that I felt His love for me. I have even witnessed true miracles in the lives of my loved ones.

No, 2009 I do not wish to ever relive you again, but I am grateful for the lemonade that you left for me when I was stomping on your lemons.

Our Christmas

We had fun filled holidays. On Christmas Eve we went to grandmas and had cocoa and goodies and decorated gingerbread houses. Then we went home and opened our jammies and sat by the fireplace while Ric read the night before christmas to the kids.

On Christmas morning the kids had fun opening their gifts and playing. Then we went to grandmas and had lunch and a family program. For our family part we sang as a family while Ric played the guitar. Which I never did formally apologize to everyone within hearing range, I'm not sure if their hearing has returned or not.

We sounded ok when we practiced. It was all I could do to not laugh, Hailey had sang a solo, the first noel, right before and then we sang away in a manger. After we sang she said she was singing the tune of the first noel which explains alot because none of us could carry a tune. Hailey sings the loudest so if she is off tune then we all are. We all know I can't carry a tune, so we were pretty much doomed.

We spent new years eve at grandmas too. I laughed all night long it was so much fun. The kids stayed up all night, which was not planned. We payed the price for that the next day. We even had fireworks! My family ROCKS!!